The Broken Hearted Breaks a Heart

I Know It Will Never Be Enough

December 10, 2008 at 10:24pm

I know it will never be enough to say I’m sorry.
I know it will never be enough to say I tried.
You may not believe me when I say I loved you.
And you probably believe me even less,
When I say I still do.

I never meant to hurt you,
I hope you understand.
That wasn’t how I thought it would end.
I was so happy,
And you meant so much to me.
But I was beaten down emotionally,
Beat down so bad,
That I felt numb to you.
I wasn’t myself…
Then I got scared.
What if it would always be this way?
What if it would never end?
Just a bunch of ongoing unexpected bends.
Never straight,
Never sure.
Someone always questioning,
Throwing in another curve.

It had nothing to do with you,
It wasn’t your fault.
It seemed to me no one wanted to see us together.
And in regards to me and your family,
I questioned if we’d ever get along.
I know it shouldn’t matter,
That I should only be there for you,
But I just couldn’t take it.
Then one day, I brought your world to a halt.
I pushed you away.
And to think in the beginning I thought,
That we were both in it to stay.
I'm sorry but I just couldn’t take it.

I know I hurt you,
And it hurt me to,
To see what I was doing to you,
And to know what I had lost.
We were both shut out in the cold and frost.
They said I cheated,
They say I wasn’t true,
But do you think I would really do that to you?
The things we always fought about,
Had nothing to do with us.
It was always because of the seeds they strew.

You were amazing.
You would have done anything for me.
Time and time again you waited for me.
And I hate myself for what I’ve done to you.
I just felt like I had no choice but to run.
I’m sorry I let you down.
I know I can never completely fix what I broke,
And I understand if you’ve lost all hope.

When I hear something about you,
Being seen with some other girl,
The thought twists my stomach in knots.
I hold back my tears,
While people keep whispering in each other’s ears,
And swallow the lump in my throat.
I can’t expect you to hold out for me forever,
I guess I’ll have to accept it when you move on.
I feel so caught and blundered.
Sometimes I have to wonder,
Was he the one?
Just know, that whatever happens,
I will never forget you.

I know it will never be enough to say I’m sorry.
I know it will never be enough to say I tried.
You may not believe me when I say I loved you.
And you probably believe me even less,
When I say I still do.